Sunday, October 03, 2004
Hello.. mi back again.. time now.. 12:17pm.. haiz.. havent eat my 'Breadfast' yet.. haiz.. damm tired.. slept at 2 last nightz.. well.. me couldnt sleep what.. so i cannot sleep lor.. just stayed awake and staring at the walls.. thinkin about some of the past.. haiz.. i really miss those days.. those happy days which i had in the past.. but.. not now anymore.. Haiz.. life havent been that easy for mi.. ever since the day when i chose to be a Prefect.. ive gain somethings... and at the same time.. ive lost quite a number of things.. thats Friends.. i really mizz some of my friends.. they were the ones who gave mi memories in the past.. but not now anymore.. i mIss the days when i was in Npcc.. Especially when i was in the Elites 2... haiz... was so bonded and united at that time.. NOT now.. No.. Not anymore.. each and everyone of the Elites 2 member had their own personal reasons.. some had left Npcc... some continue to work their all their way to the top.. and some.. just remain who they was... Well... i think.. thats something that i have to go through bahx... ?? Npcc or Prefectz.. ?? haiz.. this question had been inside my mind for a very long time le.. my answer had always been... "Npcc and Prefects are both very important to me" thats my answer.. well.. doing well in prefects means that i sometimes have to give up on Npcc.. sometimes.. whenever there are trainings and Prefects meeting happening at the very same time of the day.. i think thats the time when i have to decides bahx.. ?? i dont really know my truth self... haiz... what should i do.. ? i really mizz the times when im with her.. i do.. i swear.. but.. no matter what i say.. i know that we cant turn back time.. (or... can we..??) i would choose to go back.. rather than staying on right now.. but no matter what.. i know that she likes someone else already And.. theres no way that we could be together... haiz.. theres nothing more that i can wish for.. i just hope that she'll be happy all the time.. thats my only wish for her... thats all.. nothing else le.. Just wish that she is by my side.... (a wish that will never come true..) CryBaby will be back for more updates..
I dreamed @ Sunday, October 03, 2004
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